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New YT FlyingGekko logo by DarkDragon774
New YT FlyingGekko logo
My alternate nickname is FlyingGekko (sadly, it's already taken on dA - shoulda changed it when I had the chance :shakefist: ! BUT not on YouTube, huzzah!) and I felt like making an update on my logo/avatar thingy for it. 
The origin of the name is from an old RP between me and my best friend from high school. My character (Gaian) is a dragon, and a "friend" of hers joked and said she was just a flying gecko / gecko with wings. I liked it, but wanted to make the ck into kk, thus: FlyingGekko :)


... Why, YES! I DID use the white with blue and red colouration again... :XD: I just love it too much, I guess. Also added some feminine eyelash because people seem to associate the name with being male, hahah. 
All was made in CorelDraw because I wanted to make it as a vector. 
FoE Xorah character sheet by DarkDragon774
FoE Xorah character sheet
Finally have this done! (Well, minus the cutey mark... still working on that ^^;  )

My MLP character for the Fallout: Equestria universe. The fanfic was written by Kkat.
Horsie hoodie for my niece-ie by DarkDragon774
Horsie hoodie for my niece-ie
Been working on this since yesterday :3 I made it for my little niece since she's in the "OHMYWORDI'MFOURANDILOVEHORSIEEEES!" phase :XD: 

Bought a hoodie in the shop; used fleece for the "hair" on the head and tail, and felt for the ears...
Followed a loooooooootta tutorials on making ears and improvised some as well. 

Sorry for the bad photo quality - I took the pictures with my phone and I donnae know how to get the quality better :P 

Also, please for ignoring hairy arm. Tank yew.
Xorah MLP F0E character WIP 2 quick shades by DarkDragon774
Xorah MLP F0E character WIP 2 quick shades
She's my character from the Fallout: Equestria universe fanfiction, written by Kkat. Just the rough shadows to try out the lighting - hid her markings to make the process easier.

Line art is here:…
Flat colours here:…
Xorah MLP F0E character flat colours by DarkDragon774
Xorah MLP F0E character flat colours
She's my character from the Fallout: Equestria universe fanfiction, written by Kkat. 

A zebra unicorn - zenocorn? unibra? :XD: 

Line art is here:…
A damn deception that everything needs a reason first to exist, that's what. Maybe that doesn't make sense... maybe it's the apparent insomnia I've developed that's influencing my brain's reasoning mechanisms. Perhaps it's a long-time deceiving seed that has weeded it's way into my brain to make my "Just Because for art" break and be broken.

My Art is broken - it's the best way I can describe it. X( Tears are actually running down my face as I write this... it's a horrible feeling and I don't know how to "unbreak" my brokenesss. 

Sure, I've made the drawdleings recently, but they're not the same quality as my other art. I miss those, and I miss them terribly.
I can't fix this! I've tried, and in so many ways that you wouldn't believe. Why does my damn brain take so long to just get over things and fix itself? It took me - what - 20 something years or so to get over something that happened when I was around 10 years old. I know I got over it because I let my hair grow long again and even had  permanent eyeliner done to seem more feminine. I still can't control my emotions at the slightest inkling of conflict that affects me, and **** it I am so TIRED of that! It bloody annoys everyone and interrupts my train of thought and causes me to just shut up and hide it in a deep hole. 

I used to be able to use those kind of situations to fuel my art and be able to pour my all into making art. Now I can't anymore. I just lose focus and boredom interrupts and I end up just watching YouTube videos or sleeping the day away (at least my dreams give some excitement - new escape mechanism, yay! Pfft).

I have so many things I want to finish! My Pedrigon comic redo, Xora's picture, and countless other things including awesome wings I want to make. Heck, I spent ages researching how to draw wings properly, started to work on Pedrigon's second chapter's new cover image, and what... it's on hold. WHYYYY THE HELL, brain, WHYY?! Why have I been making it sound like my brain is out of my control? How the flip does that even work, huh? 

I think I lost my Why when someone asked about a picture I did (a character that popped into my head and I wanted to give him life). He asked why I drew him and what purpose he had. Why was he the way he was? I said just because he existed in my head and I wanted to take him out and show him to reality, because, well, he existed. To me at least - and anyone who'd accept him and make him exist even more. 
Of course, I didn't realise all this and didn't elaborate on it because my way of thinking kind of works back to front. Like when I take part in roleplays: I make something happen, or a character does something and I have no clue what the intentions are - and like any spectator only find out later why, hahaha! You know how they say that your characters have a mind of their own and write themselves? Yeah, that's how it happens - my brain can make that happen. It can create. Pull a rabbit out of a hat as if it really did come from somewhere else and really has it's own actual self awareness and life :) 

I just wish I could express and tell about it through my drawings and art like I used to :( 

So yeah, my question is: why did my Because turn into a scrutinising Why and have I succumbed to being an average... human being... with just nothing to show for anymore. My life feels meaningless this way and I don't want it to. Suicide is so not an option and I'm not a selfish person because I know there are people who care about me and I don't want to cause them heartache. 

So I just exist now for the sake of existing, and walk on the aimless path of life to one day die and leave all those ideas and creations unfinished. No one is going to know about them, and that bothers me. I received them and still do and I can't make anything about it. I don't know how to fix this.

I really don't. Broken little girl - can't even call myself a real artist anymore. I'm sorry, I'm not smart enough to change it and I just keep on dissapointing those who expect more of me (and I do too). 

Hell of a way to go, eh? Effing yaaaayyyy... :( (yup, still crying here).
  • Mood: Remorse


a.k.a. FlyingGekko
Artist | Hobbyist | Varied
South Africa
I live in South Africa, and work as a graphic designer for one of the biggest petroleum companies in... the world? Been drawing since I was about three and it went from there :3

Personal Quote: "In that which you are the strongest, you are the weakest"

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Akina117 Featured By Owner Oct 13, 2014
Hey, how are you? Found an artist you might like :iconassasinmonkey:
ShangaiLily Featured By Owner Aug 26, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thank you for the :+fav: :)
DarkDragon774 Featured By Owner Aug 28, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
You are very welcome! :D
ARVEN92 Featured By Owner Dec 8, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thanks for the watch :)
DarkDragon774 Featured By Owner Dec 11, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
You're welcome! ... I thought I'd done it a while ago already, but apparently not... 
ARVEN92 Featured By Owner Dec 22, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Hoho it's alright^^
Nara-chann Featured By Owner Sep 16, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
Thanks for the llama! :'>
DarkDragon774 Featured By Owner Sep 16, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
You are very welcome! 
And thanks for one from you too! :) 
Nara-chann Featured By Owner Sep 16, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
No problem. ^^
AuldBlue Featured By Owner Aug 24, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thanks for faving! <3
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